“A cicada shell;
it sang itself
utterly away.” – Basho
In the half-light of dusk through the rippling curtains, the blossoming evening wafts in through my window. Your old guitar lies cracked in one corner of my room, an abandoned whim gone slightly to rust, or holding the yellowing smell of old notebooks. I have lain in bed all day, and it seems but a day- you hang about the room, lingering in deep corners, shadows I am afraid to explore.
Blue smoke curls into your eyes, and sometimes, if I am lucky, you become the night. The night… every night is new loss.
Dusk and dawn are strangely similar, transitions before lasting finality. I, lover of the unfinished, fall deeply in love every dusk, every dawn, wishing to stop time, and not wishing.
Fitful fancy, when the silver moon lies shattered on the floor of my room, I drown in an ocean of white, waves of sheets pulling me down, as once I drowned in you.
I think I may have forgotten
how to breathe.